Sunday, February 21, 2010

Chinese New Year

30meh went to Doreen's house in the afternoon with chin wei and chung how because she having steamboat there. at night eat steamboat at home then play

cheh yit went to grandma house.take ang pau and gambling there. at night went to queensbay bought something and have dinner then home. ah john simon and ah wei came my house gambling until 2something only back.

misssss NG.

mummy and her girls.

we were selling orange.LMAO!

the family.

daddy and his princess.(:

so called S.H.E. XD

cheh ji went to butterworth take ang pau.visit all the relative's house.reached home at night then straight went to john's house with billy. reached there already 11pm, all his relative went back so no more ang pau.): gambling with them and john's father. was playing poker and i keep the end become dealer.LOL! went home around 3am.

cheh sah went to medicure and pedicure at queensbay with sister. after that having dinner with her and calvin. plan to watch movie after that but someone put me aeroplane so stay at home do assignment.== thought will be at home whole night,ah chuan suddenly called me and asked me go SOY 11.yeah~! vincent came and fetch me then we go SOY & FAME. due to hungry,so i VOMIT!wtf.

cheh si night went to upper AGAIN. this time went to ladies night for mois and it was so packed and hot! many people there and met many friends there too. it's freaking hot and keep sweating. came out that time,everybody like just finish bathing.LOL.

cheh goh went to queensbay because we having a small gathering there with melissa, shijie, branda, pohgaik. around 6something, we all leaving and have own function. i drop melissa then went to chin wei house. at night me,chin wei, jameson and his gf, johnson and ah loy went to watch percy jackson and the lightning thief. the story line abit fake but quite funny.


shi jie.

poh gaik.

cheh lak went to chin wei's house watch movie. i'm so addicted to his theater room!!lol. after that went to The Cave having family dinner.(:

cheh pek whole day at home do assignment.LOL!

p/s: due to chin wei busy with his assignment so i cant have my photo on cheh qit. will update soon.(:


I learn this sentence today, and i love it.(:

believe in who you are,not what you wear.

Saturday, February 13, 2010


when i listen to DOWN by Jay Sean it's nothing affect me but the piano version make me super duper down and want to cry though i love piano, i like people who know how to play piano.:)

"Baby don't worry,you're my only,you won't be lonely,even if the sky is falling down; you'll be my only,no need to worry....." if someone can tell me so with sincere and love me the way i are, love me for who i am.

Love is like heaven but can hurt like hell!

FML! i have nothing at the end.

Friday, February 12, 2010

My fault.

i'm a bad girl so don't trust me. (: i'm not good enough to get a good boy,that's why every good boy leave me alone here. FML! i play hard, perhaps i don't even know how to love a person and how to let them love me. it's all my fault, i get all this retribution. i will kind, but i won't stop until the guy is mine; but, i can't stop even he want to be mine.): so i won't blame anyone though i need to introspection.
perhaps i love myself. so i get to face this loneliness.i don't even know how to love people. i'm still a stupid young chick, not mature enough to get love by people.
i play hard thought i will be fine but i'm so lonely at the time. :(


Thursday, February 11, 2010

Monday, February 08, 2010

A brand new joyce

Recently online do nothing so keep update my blog.LOL! finally, i had cut short my hair. already planned for long time but dint the end, with some people support, so i decide to cut it and dye.xD very satisfy with it and many people said it's nice, really suit me and i look younger.hahahaha. XD

I already don't know what am i doing and i don't know who am i. i feel that i no longer the Joyce. who am i?


yes, i am devil! i feel that i'm so bad!! i don't know what to do sometimes. i feel that i don't want to continue like this, but i just can't stop myself for being like this.


Saturday, February 06, 2010


i'm going to 19years old in around 2 months. getting older and older. suddenly feel that i dont want to grow up. i miss the past. miss my childhood. miss those moment when i was young; when i was a primary student; when i was form 1,form 2 & form 3. when i was the age, all things are so simple.all people are so naive and innocent. laugh everyday and nothing to worry. sometimes i don't like's so complicated. we grow up, need to think a lot. force ourselves to choose something.

we can't ever get 2things in the same time.even though we have them, but it won't last longer. we can't maintain, one or both you will lost at the end. this the fact, we need to force ourselves to accept it, but, it's really hard to choose;to make decision. this is so called life. we need to choose or make decision everyday on everything. this is part of the disadvantage when we grow up. when we were young, we don't need to choose while people will choose for us. but, that time, we will blame them that why choose for us?we want to choose ourselves.see, human are so complicated.

when we grow up, we have a lot of things to busy with. friends will not getting closer like last time. we will only come out when we are free but it's hard to arrange. when we grow up, we have to learn be independent. we have learn to take care ourselves. it's no longer like last time that every moment have people beside you; hug you when you fall down; feed you when hungry; coax you when you cry.

you have to walk alone when nobody comes with you. sometimes, i feel lonely. i need someone to care me; to beside me when i'm sad; to coax me when i'm down; to hug me when i fall down.i don't like to walk alone, even though sometimes i said "please leave me alone." but actually i not really mean it. i need someone to come with me; i need someone to hug me and tell me" you are not alone,you have me."

I want someone to be there when I fall; I want someone to see me through it all; I want someone to hold me in my sleep; i want someone to show me what i need; i want someone to know just how down deep and all I want is YOU.

someone told me, i'm hurting myself actually. perhaps i should not care too much. i shoudn't care what others people say about me at my back unless they come to me and ADVICE me; my emotion shoudn't depends on other people, i shoudn't let people control me while i need to control my emotion myself. perhaps i should always remember this : forgive to forget. only forget every bad things will make myself happy.

there are a lot of people that may not like you, but there is also some people who truly care and help you. they are come with sincere. but, who knows who is fake and who is real? i said, follow your heart will do. but reality told me that, i always wrong. living is easy with eyes closed. once you open your eyes, you have to face a lot of things. face the reality and it's always so cruel. i like to dream and imagine. i always day dreaming and sometimes i hope that i don't need to wake up. dream and imagination always so nice. what if i can live in imagination, there will be no tears in my life, but i know it will never happen. people said, tears is to help you grow up and tell you learn from the mistake.

lastly, i want to remind: no matter how people said about you, as long as you know yourself well, change yourself from the mistake and maintain the good things. there have evils that say about your bad or trick you, but there are also angels that will help you.